Tuesday, 4 August 2009

waswas part 2

One thing that gets me is this doubt. Doubting myself, its out of striving for perfection in the Deen. But no one's perfect, we do what we can. But with Islam as a guide,it has countless guidelines and many times this overwhelms muslims who are trying to follow every single part, including me. So this goes out to us all.

the balancing act: FEAR and HOPE
HOPING TOO MUCH:
Allah says: "None feels secure from the Plan of Allah except the people who are the losers.'' (7:99)
FEARING TOO MUCH:
He also says: "Certainly no one despairs of Allah's Mercy, except the people who disbelieve.'' (12:87)
This means there's no black and white, only Allah knows each and every person, their trials and what they have to overcome them. He knows when we are deliberately heedless and when the fear is low.
Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said, "If a believer had full knowledge of the chastisement of Allah, none would covet His Jannah; and were an infidel to know the Mercy Allah has, none would despair of His Jannah".[Muslim].
"Verily, your Rabb is Quick in Retribution (for the disobedient, wicked) and certainly He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful (for the obedient and those who beg Allah's forgiveness).'' (7:167)
There is a battle within me
to retain some sanity
to stay composed
to stay human
The ideal feels too constrained
the present feels too long
the sun shines down
the wind, still whispering
I have walked so far
hoping for purity of heart
Yet it took one prick to stain the ocean red,
What poison dyes so strong?
Pleasure, Restraint
Fun, Piety
one or the other
this world or the next
Is there an in between?
SUBHANALLAH
Am I burning myself with this
digging the well too deep
drowning as the water
gushes forward
I am a confused girl
but my soul has already made up her mind
there's got to be a balance
the straight lane is too hard
I am but flesh
the bent lane is too easy
too heedless would that path be
I do have a questioning conscience
so the way is that is stubby green
rocky upward trek never taken
It's a brand new day
a learning experience
learning myself
learning a new kind of restraint
an easing, accepting, true to myself
restraint
I saw through materialism
but found the value of beauty
I saw the fradulent foundations of our civilisation
but came back to loving the mankind struggling each day
I saw a glimpse of the darkest future
but reassure myself with Dhikr and prayer
that has to bring me some light
I recognised white and black
but saw grey in the mirror
I found two extremes but came to myself
the middle ground
Ibn Mas`ud (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of Allah (PBUH) said, "Jannah is nearer to you than your shoelace, and so is the (Hell) Fire".[Al-Bukhari].

2 comments:

Stacy aka Fahiima said...

Where have you been girl? I hope you're ready for Ramadan Inshaallah.

Anonymous said...

learning a new kind of restraint
an easing, accepting, true to myself
restraint
I saw through materialism
but found the value of beauty


woah. self-restraint important stuff man.
Rubber